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| An offering |
How to desire something that is already everything? The ego just keeps looking for a job, a place to work, and hang on. Why bother asking when he already knows? I got a kind, "That is enough," when I snuck in an extra pranam, (but he was in his room during the first one.) The invisible eyes.
As I sit with the evolution of self, the eyes have tears and the heart has a lingering sadness. Where is the sadness coming from? It feels like another death, but it is from a place of love/offering to merge whatever is left of the self. The willingness to be nothing, no desires, no requirements, no taking--only to be in the presence of what is. Excepting the beauty and love of what is offered as a place to be internally. Dissolving another layer of the egos need to have disturbances/separation to feel vital.
I have often questioned whether or not I am worthy of this magnitude of love and unconditional acceptance. The sadness is from the place of not loving myself. The merging of self into Absolute Love requires that I turn back into the truth of my self. More letting go and trusting the new layer.
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