Friday, May 18, 2018

Days In The Desert Drawing To A Close

Two weeks and the shift to Colorado is in motion. Four months in Carbondale, one week in Lisbon for riding lessons, and Jaipur for the critical inner work (the ticket to India is open ended). I really enjoy living in the desert even with the heat and periodic winds. There is something sacred about the rawness of the environment, but that is true of nature in general. My time working with Selfseeds and various youth groups in the area has been insightful and inspiring for the future. EquiSeers is looking into creating retreats for non-equestrians and equestrians, "Horses for Humanity."

Saturday, April 14, 2018

Enneagram Revisited

Walking in the rain Seattle, WA
Eight years ago, I was studying the spiritual/mental construction of the enneagram. What fun to attend a work shop on transformation through the lens of the enneagram in Seattle, WA. Rereading the books and listening to the speaker for three days has tied a nice bow around what I learned while in India. Western words for an Eastern experience. Looking at the diversity of humanity from the typing system of the Enneagram. Humans are way less scary now and I know why they are scratchy. Grace.

Seeker Restriction

Walking in Petaluma, CA
One pattern that emerged in India was what I was using as a climbing rope often needed removing with the wheelbarrow to the surrender pile when it had served its purpose. I never would have foreseen that my diligence as a seeker to call out my ego was becoming an obstruction in the merging into the new state of awareness for Absolute Truth and Love.

Items I packed up while putting everything into storage once again. 

Monday, February 12, 2018

Shadow Side

More homework and another trip with the wheelbarrow to the surrender pile.

It starts as unrest and then grows into drowning on dry land--the appearance of my next homework assignment. Observing when I was working with Selfseeds that I felt the fire of being from my inner meditations at the ashram. My life with the horses often creates a place of contrast, because of the separation between the state of the horses and the state of the beings riding them. Hmmm... how to work on this disparity? The tools are available, but what to place in the wheelbarrow now to be taken to the surrender pile? The shadow side. It is not the truth of who I know my authentic Self to be. Thank you, Carol.

Winter in the desert. 
Date harvest
Thank you horses from around the world to be a mirror for my shadow side.

Wednesday, January 17, 2018

Nice Surprise

Thank you Sophia for the photo! 

Tuesday, December 26, 2017

Subjective vs. Objective

Cracking and shifting. A recent very painful, problematic situation with three horses and three people left me digging for something once again.

Reread a book from 10 years ago that talks about the human personality/soul from the perspective of 9 aspects of the enneagram. I can now place a check mark by the nine aspects and see that the human lens is the obscuration to the Divine. The human lens always has some percentage of ego, but it can be shifted to view the world objectively instead of subjectively.

One of my most profound experiences in meditation while in India, I became aware of a state of being with no boundaries, a texture of peaceful, joy, and a quality of essence. It has been a precious point of awareness that I have carried into my daily like. It felt like some sort of stream of energy that bound everything and everyone together whether one was aware of it or not. I have wondered if it would ever be integrated somehow instead of just a very deep sense of Truth. When there are disturbances, I have been experimenting with looking at them without my subjective lens and chalk them up for the human experience. More trips to the surrender pile. Gratitude for the relentless urging from the Universe to go deeper into the flame.

Christmas morning spent with babies/small children in the Loma Linda Children’s hospital while handing out gifts. Humbling!