Monday, February 12, 2018

Shadow Side

More homework and another trip with the wheelbarrow to the surrender pile.

It starts as unrest and then grows into drowning on dry land--the appearance of my next homework assignment. Observing when I was working with Selfseeds that I felt the fire of being from my inner meditations at the ashram. My life with the horses often creates a place of contrast, because of the separation between the state of the horses and the state of the beings riding them. Hmmm... how to work on this disparity? The tools are available, but what to place in the wheelbarrow now to be taken to the surrender pile? The shadow side. It is not the truth of who I know my authentic Self to be. Thank you, Carol.

Winter in the desert. 
Date harvest
Thank you horses from around the world to be a mirror for my shadow side.

Wednesday, January 17, 2018

Nice Surprise

Thank you Sophia for the photo! 

Tuesday, December 26, 2017

Subjective vs. Objective

Cracking and shifting. A recent very painful, problematic situation with three horses and three people left me digging for something once again.

Reread a book from 10 years ago that talks about the human personality/soul from the perspective of 9 aspects of the enneagram. I can now place a check mark by the nine aspects and see that the human lens is the obscuration to the Divine. The human lens always has some percentage of ego, but it can be shifted to view the world objectively instead of subjectively.

One of my most profound experiences in meditation while in India, I became aware of a state of being with no boundaries, a texture of peaceful, joy, and a quality of essence. It has been a precious point of awareness that I have carried into my daily like. It felt like some sort of stream of energy that bound everything and everyone together whether one was aware of it or not. I have wondered if it would ever be integrated somehow instead of just a very deep sense of Truth. When there are disturbances, I have been experimenting with looking at them without my subjective lens and chalk them up for the human experience. More trips to the surrender pile. Gratitude for the relentless urging from the Universe to go deeper into the flame.

Christmas morning spent with babies/small children in the Loma Linda Children’s hospital while handing out gifts. Humbling!

Monday, December 11, 2017

Boutique Farm Life

Desert sunset
Gathering eggs, driving the tractor, watering plants, gardening, boutique animal collection care, and whatever is needed has been a nice experience for 1/2 the day. A mini-farm retreat.The passing of my adoptive mother has removed an unexpected veil. Something is brewing for another shift. Bought two horses as projects for the winter, Lincoln and Smarty.

Discovering a new richness in morning meditation. Grace.

A few of the animal members.
Peacock prints on the clean porch. They visit the window's to my casita daily.

Saturday, November 4, 2017

Life Without Breath

Nothing much to the body when there is no breath. Looking at the lifeless is its own teaching. Breath at the start and not at the end. Rest in peace. My adoptive mother. Unexpected departure. Grace to have no suffering. 

Saturday, October 7, 2017

Leaves of Trees

Teaching of leaves: circle of life, always in a state of change, no attachment at the end, flexible...

Last walk with the fall colors making dramatic changes. Interesting to observe my own changes.

Friday, September 29, 2017


Irrigation and 26 degrees. As I drive down the road...
Launching a potential consciousness shift in the equestrian world. Five of us got together who are troubled about the state of consciousness regarding the working horse world. Amazing process. Thank you India and the time spent in deep self-examination. All the tools in the toolbox are needed in this endeavor, so we take action with a minimum of ego. Collaboration vs. competition.


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Art glacier in Antarctica. Not much different? (photo credit CNN)