Monday, October 31, 2011
Sunday, October 30, 2011
|Objects to buy|
|We start our lives as teachers, and it is very hard for us to learn to become pupils. There are many whose only difficulty in life is that they are teachers already. What we have to learn is pupilship. There is but one Teacher, God Himself.|
Bowl of Saki, October 30, by Hazrat Inayat Khan
|Commentary by Pir-o-Murshid Inayat Khan:|
In order to know the truth or to know God earthly qualifications and earthly wisdom or learning are not necessary. What one has to learn is how to become a pupil. We often start our lives as teachers, and then it is hard to become a pupil. From childhood on we start to teach our parents. There are seldom souls who have more inclination for pupilship than for teaching, and there are many whose only difficulty in life is that they are teachers already. Man thinks that perhaps his reading or study of different religions and doctrines has qualified him and made him capable to understand the truth and to have the knowledge of God, but he forgets that there is only one teacher, and that is God Himself. We all are pupils, and what we can do in life is to qualify ourselves to become true pupils. from http://wahiduddin.net/mv2/VIII/VIII_2_7.htm
It should be remembered that all the great teachers of humanity, such as Jesus Christ, Buddha, Muhammad and Zarathushtra, have been great pupils; they have learned from the innocent child, they have learned from everyone, from every person that came near them. They have learned from every situation and every condition of the world. They have understood and they have learned. It is the desire to learn continually that makes one a teacher, and not the desire to become a teacher. As soon as a person thinks, 'I am something of a teacher,' he has lost ground. For there is only one teacher: God alone is the Teacher, and all others are His pupils. We all learn from life what life teaches us. When a soul begins to think that he has learned all he had to learn and that now he is a teacher, he is very much mistaken. The greatest teachers of humanity have learned from humanity more than they have taught. from http://wahiduddin.net/mv2/X/X_2_8.htm
|Also called||All Hallows’ Eve|
All Saints’ Eve
|Observed by||Around the world|
|Observances||Costume parties, trick-or-treating, carving pumpkins, ghost tours, haunted attractions, bonfires, divination, apple bobbing, fireworks displays|
|Related to||Samhain, All Saints’ Day(cf. vigils)|
Halloween carved pumpkins
Costumes for children....
Costumes for adults....
Saturday, October 29, 2011
(photo from Wikipedia)
The Himalayas, which are often called "The Roof of the World", contain the greatest area of glaciers and permafrost outside of the poles. Ten of Asia’s largest rivers flow from here, and more than a billion people’s livelihoods depend on them. To complicate matters, temperatures are rising more rapidly here than the global average. In Nepal, the temperature has risen 0.6 degree C over the last decade, whereas the global warming has been around 0.7 degree C over the last hundred years. (Wikipedia)
|(Photo from Wikipedia)|
Friday, October 28, 2011
|Lily pond under reconstruction so finding other flower models--gift to Gurudev from a disciple|
I found myself a bit crabby after walking down the street to the ashram and getting honked at twice in such a short distance. Isn't it possible to ever walk anywhere in India without getting honked at or hear honking? I wasn't even walking in the road, but they want to make sure you know that they are coming. Yes, it is better than getting hit.... Obviously the ego was activated in some way. I had already had the water shut off three times while I was taking a shower, I ruined my coffee milk by adding the coffee at a different time so curdled the milk, and had a new squeak start on my exercise bike. None of them life threatening, but the ego was awake. I have already lowered my expectations for cleanliness, quiet, and fresh air to the lowest standard that I have ever had in this lifetime, so now what? Does this mean eliminating any and all expectations? Can one live without any expectations? Will there be joy in life? Seeing a thread of attachment.
After sitting in the ashram for a bit and regaining tranquil composure, I started to wonder if it was actually possible to have this same sense of inner peace in the city. I have had extended moments, but my ego wanted to know if it was really worth the work. Obviously, I needed to make another circle around to examine expectations. Narrowing my questions down to one, I asked Gurudev if it was possible. Of course, I was hoping he would say no, but I doubted that would be the response. Yes calmly came from this unblinking being. I had already organized my plan of attack if the answer was yes. so I ran it by him to clarify my homework.
Expectation + Expectation not met = pain/separation
No Expectation = no pain from Expectation not being met
*Clarify action: Mind is a chalkboard, keep wiping off ANY thought of design/expectation
*I asked if people living in the slums have a lower expectation, so less pain. In principle yes except for the addition of materialism, desire, etc. getting loaded into their environment. Gurudev talked about growing up in a village that didn't have clocks, cars, phones, etc. He said it was so pure and so beautiful. The only periodic twinge was for food. I didn't go onto ask about respect for women, environment, and animals. The thought of the serene village where he cooked food out on a boat in a river was a pleasant place to leave it. Besides, the homework around keeping my mental chalkboard clear was plenty.
I am not trying to change India, I am only trying to find a way to be in it (the world/hospital) without pain. I know where my pain spots are at home, but I didn't have my new tool kit clear enough. He also confirmed that as a foreigner, growing up in abundance, materialism, high standard of living, etc. the challenge to eliminate expectations/mental designs is not easy. Possible, but not often easy. The mind has to be open/willing. (Although, it could be easy--just let go. People give up cigarettes cold turkey, so why not mental expectations? Making a mountain into a molehill! Gurudev Rocks!)
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Now that the dream state and the wake state are often a blur, I am not going to categorize the state I was in while experienced this vision. I was standing alone, but feeling enveloped by a lovely presence that didn't require anything from me and yet supported/nurtured who I am. I was only standing alone-not being alone. Next, humanity came and wrapped itself around me and created a physical presence that was also lovely but limited by form. Even with the addition of humanity, I smiled and felt the weightless comfort of the spacious presence that permeated us both.
Part of a writing by Bhavani that is helping me to understand pain and compassion (June 9th, 2007):
When Love pours with tears, compassion is at the root.
Bliss is not an aspect of compassion but Grace is.
Those with the quality of a compassionate nature may find themselves experiencing cessation of "bliss" at times--this is to assist them in bringing forth compassion rather than love.
Only the truly awakened can bear the sense of separation and detachment, longing and loss, and still channel compassion to others even while experiencing the state of separation and, in fact, while using the grief of that state to propel the "movement of love tempered by experience" that is Compassion.
This particular "ray" or vibration is not woven into the tapestry of an incarnating soul without great reflection beforehand. And it is therefore most often taken into the vessel of the human form that most resembles the Creator, that which holds both life and death in its "body"--the feminine.
Compassion reveals the imprint of experience on the soul.
You can feel and express love without having any experience (for example, a baby can love), but you cannot feel and express compassion without experience.
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
|Sidewalk Art with candles|
From what I gather it is like Christmas in the US. Everyone waits until now to buy, buy, buy--new cars, new furniture, new clothes, paint the house--all in the name of the Goddess of Wealth. Fireworks at night, candle lighting everywhere, decorated streets, lights on the buildings, firecrackers--another big Indian party.
|In the Pink City|
|Mountains of prashad (and firecrackers)|
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
The thread started with a question around accepting praise, self worth, rejection, and love. How can one offer compassion/love without having love for one's self. Not getting the cart before the horse. Where did the lack of love for self come from. It wasn't in the requirement manual for raising a human. It was learned. In my case, it was from mirroring the lack in a parent, trying desperately to please, and never reaching the love bar. Nothing was ever good enough were the unspoken words. Never giving up reaching, but always punished in some emotional way. (Thank you Bhavani for help with uncovering that thread--rope I should say!) I have gratitude for the will it instilled. Striving for excellence. Looking for the truth. Now to let go of those ego beliefs and merge into the greater being of the Divine. Taking the leap of faith to reach again. I have verbalized doubts and questions around if this spacious source can say no at the entry gate. Such a deep inner longing to be enfolded by freedom.
Someone brought it to my attention that compassion is linked to pain. It felt like a pinhole offered in a balloon of despair. There was light offered into the smallest crack. Her writings on the topic were so heartfelt, profound, timely, magical, transformative, and ethereal. There could be a reason for brewing in this soup of despair and pain. Another blade of grass to grasp on the the climb out of inner hell?
Compassion is a virtue — one in which the emotional capacities of empathy and sympathy (for the suffering of others) are regarded as a part of love itself, and a cornerstone of greater social interconnection and humanism — foundational to the highest principles in philosophy, society, and personhood.
Ranked a great virtue in numerous philosophies, compassion is considered in all the major religious traditions as among the greatest of virtues.
From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
|Where to look for me if I don't show up|
Question: Is suffering beneficial?
Answer: Suffering is always a blessing. If it is for higher ideas, for God, for an ideal, it takes a person at once to the highest heaven. If it is for lower ideas, for the ego, for pride, for possessions, it takes a person to the lowest depth of hell. But there, after much suffering, after a long, long time, he loses these ideas and is purified. That is why the Christian religion shows the symbol of the cross, of suffering. How high our ideal may be, how low our ideal may be, in the end each pain has its prize.
Monday, October 24, 2011
|Both Sharing Survival Out of the Same Pile of Garbage|
The walking is awesome for sorting through my insanity realizations: 1) the progression of religion to mysticism makes sense for consciousness awakening in humans (although some are born in the depth of mysticism), 2) recognizing the real change has to be the energetic realignment for consciousness to truly manifest, 3) doing goodness is a step, but changing the inner being is the truth of the action, 4) observing the raw layers of humanity along with the "civilized" help to understand and accept the diversity, 5) seeing the randomness helps me let go of any notion of correct order (challenging the places of attachment/judgement), 6) energy transmissions helping to rewire the physical condition while uncovering Divine Nature, 7) the mind is the veil, and this list goes on too.
Sunday, October 23, 2011
(picture copyrighted by Communities-Rising)
Besides investigating the truth of the spiritual world, a story about a young girl named Kavita inspired my initial visit to India. Originally, I was going to meet Gurudev, hang out with the group, and then go to Chennai to see what I could offer to help with the nonprofit organization Communities Rising http://communities-rising.org/. A very good friend from home has a cousin who developed the program and continues to support/grow her efforts with a developing community. They graciously made space for me last minute when I knew my time in South Africa was growing to a close and I still had 6 weeks available for my 3 month leave of absence from California. I learned about the program through the story of a remarkably brave and driven young woman, Kavita
There are more atrocities to the story, but this gives you insight into her will to survive and path to give back. A true phoenix rising from the fire. I would still like to meet Kavita, but my path changed direction again when I asked if I could stay longer at the feet of Gurudev. There was an opening to answer some very deep questions about the path back to the Divine. What is the bigger picture? At some point, do these numerous and heart wrenching examples of localized pain make sense?
Ugandan woman recalls harrowing tale of captivity - CNN.com*
Remember by Omkara
This life is... This life is... This life is a dream. This life is a dream.
Om Gan Ganapataye Namaha. This life is beautiful. This life is horrible.
It'll be over in the blink of an eye. Remember who you are.
Remember what you are. Whose life is this? Whose hands are these?
Whose voice is this? What am I? This life is just a dream.
It will be over in the blink of an eye. Remember who you are.
Remember what you are. Remember who you are.
This life is wonderful. And this life is just a dream... A dream made of love.
Remember who you are. Remember what you are. Remember who you are. Remember... You are before.
Before these questions. Before an answer. Remember... You are before.
Thank you Hava for sharing the music link and poem.
The list is getting easier and easier. No answers, so I can stop looking for them. It appears there is no way into the spiritual enlightenment club unless it is your time, so that item can come off the list too, (today's homework download.) What is left? Ego management, hollowness, no attachments. staying out of the future (most of the time), and being. Back to living, but with a new set of awareness tools.
Hanging out with the Divine Genealogy while Gurudev is away. Got a kick out of his sign. Do you think people would talk loudly and act differently if the librarian stepped out of the library? Human nature it appears.