Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Is It Possible?

Gurudev was telling me how people often end up back in nature after being a householder, because of the purity of animals/nature.  Wait a minute, that is where I started and I didn't sign up for the human insanity plan.  In principle, I have spent 25 years trying to find out if it was possible to be with humans.  He mentioned in his story that people can be with a lion or tiger when they stay clear in their hearts.  Yes, I felt no fear while I was in South Africa with roaming wild animals.  Respect yes, but not fear.  I was even wondering about that specifically, "Shouldn't I be afraid?"  The peace I feel with animals/nature is the peace I have been trying to find while in the proximity of human forms.  IS IT POSSIBLE????? And as a woman?????  My animal friends thought that I was crazy when I said, "I want to know if it possible to sit with humans in the same tranquility as with animals."--parting words as I left for the other side of the world seeking the answer.  There was always a scratchiness with humans.

The Oracle thinks it is possible.  He told me about two different spiritual women who lived in complete oneness/nakedness with life.  I am not sure how that would work in downtown LA, but that is to be determined at a later date.  There might need to be an attendant who throws a cloth over the Being in appropriate situations.  I don't need to get too far into the story yet.  Just digesting the possibility is enough for right now.  I can find it through the spiritual door and I know that all is one, but this skin suit keeps distracting me.  Do I get to use the three types of humans rule, so I can be one with discernment?

Being A Woman Is Yet Another Veil

The insanity of the planet is built on separation.  Every difference is fuel for separation.  I understand and accept this, but what about just being a woman?  Where did the separation originate that creates violence, disrespect, abuse, domination, and more against woman?  I understand religion, skin color, belief systems, etc., but one's sex?  And I am not even looking at sexual orientation--just the being of a man or a woman. When I sit in the Oneness of the Divine--it is seamless and not eve a hint of separation.

Is being a woman yet another veil or social/mental construction?  The Oracle says yes--it is a samskara, so there are liabilities that come with it.  Can I be in the form and throw caution to the wind regarding the list that goes with protecting the vulnerability of a woman?  No.  There are three types of people was the qualification: pure, compounds/mixtures, and "bad."  "Stay away from the bad."  I can see how this would be a universal truth too.

Monday, January 30, 2012

The Teachings In The Dreams

24/7 the teachings continue.  Receiving amazing lessons in my sleep time.  No distractions, no separation in the work, and sense of presence.  It feels like a continuous flow washing through me as spirit--the truth of who I am.

Understanding Veils

Veils can be light weight, medium weight, heavy weight and so on.  Until one is removed it is difficult to determine the personal effect of the veil's weight.   The person who lives on the other side of the wall from me has been away for a few days.  The veil of violence and abuse has been removed from this small corner of existence.  I don't have to sense or be on alert about what he is doing, so I can avoid any unnecessary interactions.   I had almost forgot about that veil, since it has become a coping mechanism that I just need to deal with.  It triggered my thinking about other veils and lists.

What I will miss:

Gurudev and his wisdom, love, and teachings 
new friends
extensive time for meditation and contemplation
historical buildings
the marvel of the unexpected

What I won't miss:

pedestrians not having the right of way
honking horns
loud music
screaming/crying children
blaring television
routine power outages
running out of water (but that has improved)
open sewer canals
urine saturated walls
undrinkable water
mentally assaulted multiple times a day
spitting, ball scratching, farting, burping, staring men
(women could have part of this list too)
aggressive begging
periodic violent sickness
seeing severely infested or injured animals
feces et al awareness while walking
high dust/pollution levels
open garbage piles (everywhere)
litter (everywhere)
washing myself and clothes out of a bucket
acute food awareness

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Shiva Temple

Inner Courtyard

Inner Sanctum

Favorite Temple (Spiritual Feeling 101)

Favorite temple--feels like sitting at the feet of Gurudev and Pahari Baba
500 years old

Would love to take this temple home with me...

The temple was closed, but when the two women found out how much I loved the temple and was so internally stirred, they graciously opened it.  I want to go back and just sit for a few hours.  I was moved to tears again.  I haven't been so deeply effected by any other temple.  It really feels like I am sitting at Gurudev's feet.

Someone showed me how to sit in lotus position.  Everything but my ankles are ok with it, so I am going to start at 2-5 minutes on each side and build up.  I was practicing on my Gurudev rug this morning, (it will go to California with me), and feeling the presence of the Divine Geneaology. Of course, it has alway been present, but my lint screen is getting cleared enough to recognize it.  Now I have two families:  the Divine Family and the physical family.  All one big family soup!

Saturday, January 28, 2012

The Gift

The Divine was painting again this morning.

Oneness.  One less walking wounded without a tool kit--capacity for Absolute Love.  With the veils pulled back,  The Divine's Truth, Beauty, Wisdom, and Love are limitless.

The brain speaks through words; the heart in the glance of the eyes; and the soul through a radiance that charges the atmosphere, magnetizing all.
                        Bowl of Saki, January 26, by Hazrat Inayat Khan
Commentary by Pir-o-Murshid Inayat Khan:
The phenomena of the radiance of the soul are apparent to the student of the human body. The body with its perfect mechanism loses power, magnetism, beauty, and brightness, when the soul departs from the body. This shows that the power, magnetism, beauty, and brightness belong to the soul.   from  http://wahiduddin.net/mv2/V/V_47.htm

As the brain is the instrument of the mind, which is invisible, and the heart of flesh is the vehicle of the heart within, which is above substance, so it is the illumination of the soul, our invisible being, whose light is reflected within this physical body. When active it beams through the eyes, through the radiance of the countenance, charging the whole environment with a magnetic atmosphere.
   from  http://wahiduddin.net/mv2/V/V_45.htm

Every soul radiates an influence which charges the atmosphere all around. The more powerful the influence the wider it spreads, forcing its way even through walls. There is no barrier of water or space which can keep that influence from spreading. The stronger the influence the longer it lasts. ... Atmosphere is a silent music. It has its effect upon the listener, exciting or peaceful, whatever it may be.
   from  http://wahiduddin.net/mv2/XIII/XIII_6.htm

The heart of man is like a globe over the light of the soul. When the globe is dusty, naturally the light is dim. When it is cleaned, the light increases. In fact, the light is always the same. It is the fault of the globe when it is not clear. When this radiance shines out, it shows itself not only through the countenance and expression of a man, but even in the man's atmosphere. The soul-power, so to speak, freely projects outward, and the surroundings feel it.
   from  http://wahiduddin.net/mv2/V/V_47.htm

Saraswati's Day of Celebration

School performance attended by Gurudev
Peacock performers
Skit on left, awards, production crew on right 

Basant-Panchmi Day

In Hinduism Saraswati (Sanskritसरस्वतीSarasvatī ?), is the goddess of knowledge,musicarts and science. She is the consort of Brahma, also revered as His Shakti.[1][2]

The name Saraswati came from "saras" (meaning "flow") and "wati" (meaning "she who has ..."), i.e. "she who has flow" or can mean sara meaning "essence" and swa meaning "self". So, Saraswati is symbol of knowledge; its flow (or growth) is like a river and knowledge is supremely alluring, like a beautiful woman. She is depicted as beautiful fair Goddess with Four arms, wearing spotless white saree and seated on white lotus. She is also known as "Sharada", "Vani" and "Vagdevi" (both meaning "speech").

Friday, January 27, 2012

Selfseeds Inspirational Walk Pacific Coast www.Selfseeds.com (short video)

Self Assigned Mantra

She turned to face me.
"Bring It On"  The intensity of the lesson plan is not letting up, but the massive difference is there is no disturbance internally even if I am discussing or learning from the disturbance.  Into the fire over and over again.  The fundamental teachings are holding up and Gurudev has been adding his personal thoughts from his own observations/experiences.  It is AMAZING!  No stone will be left unturned.  What is more incredible for me is that it keeps coming back to the basics of sensing and keeping the lint screen as clean as possible.  The animals have really prepared me for all of this--pranam to the animal kingdom.

Mama training the puppies to wait.  She drinks the milk and leaves the rice for them

The First Group Of Selfseeds Short Videos As A Start (14)

Reposted some of the videos after making small changes and synchronizing all of them with the opening Selfseeds logo/identifying the topic of the video.  The two different blogs have different blogging formats too, so I am always learning from both of them.  11 Selfseeds, but I made 3 additional fun ones too. Don't hold back on the input.  Fun? Annoying? Inspiring? Bizarre?

Every day presents new challenges, so I just keep working with the three principles.  They appear to apply to the path, the teacher, and the student.  Getting lots of opportunities to put them to the test.

My business partner in Florida for the horse sales just contacted me and asked me if I was ready to get going on our PhoenixEQ business.  Her life has fallen back into place and she is ready to go again.  Synchronicity!!

Selfseeds Balance www.Selfseeds.com (short video) 
Link: http://waltzinghorses.blogspot.com/2012/01/selfseeds-balance-wwwselfseedscom-short.html 

Selfseeds Walking Inspiration South Africa www.Selfseeds.com (short video)
Link: http://waltzinghorses.blogspot.com/2012/01/selfseeds-walking-inspiration-south.html 

Selfseeds Inspirational Walk Pacific Coast www.Selfseeds.com (short video)
Link: http://waltzinghorses.blogspot.com/2012/01/selfseeds-inspirational-walk-pacific.html