Monday, February 29, 2016
The perception is an edge that feels like wearing something too small. Continuing to dismantle the outer wear that limits living from the inner wear. Living without borders--at the limitation of what I can sense. A moment of free fall, (stepping off the cliff edge), to no where other then deeper within the layer I know as the Real Self. It has been a while since fear was palpable in a shift. I stated the shift verbally as some form of affirmation following the inward commitment. A moment to examine the false comfort of the scaffolding. The sense of infinite expansiveness is becoming the new outer wear. Gratitude.
|Stepping out of my car at work|
Sunday, February 21, 2016
|Santa Rosa Mountains. The mountains I have been walking.|
|View from the Pacific Crest Trail|
Becoming clearer that I am helping people to understand how to ride from the inside of the horse instead of just the outside.
Tuesday, February 16, 2016
Another hike, but only seven hours. Watching my mind as it tries to create a story to embellish what I was doing--walking. Emotions were the ornaments and the distraction from inner peace. How simple. The desire to analyze and give feedback is diminishing--except for when called upon to do so at work. Walking in the stillness of the night, without a story, and from the state of the self cave. I hiked by a few caves and reflected on stories of spiritual masters and seekers. The self inquiry from a less provoking environment. My mind is the provocateur. I was made aware of this while in India, but the spiral staircase is relentless until I disappear?
Wonderful feed back on the second book, My Horse, My Heart, My Soul. I continue to feel so fortunate to have teamed up with the interviewees and Takao to bring this to life.
The new job has been a perfect setting to rekindle my passion for riding and teaching. I am finding a more articulate way to describe the intricacies of timing and feel to all levels of riders. I might need to hijack the blog back to its original role as a blog for riders?
Tuesday, February 9, 2016
Nature, natural sounds, rugged terrain, beauty, aloneness, and darkness--nine hours. Eased the restlessness I have been feeling while in my new life. The hike became a way to remember the vitality within my self, faith, perseverance, steadfastness, and humility. Yes, it was dangerous and reckless, but it provided a way to join and align the outer and inner world. I had attended one of the biggest horse shows on the west coast which felt empty of living vitality. How is this possible to have thousands of horses and humans, but a texture as a void? Am I in service to this void? The void is a reflection of the outer emptiness and to remember the only state of peace is inward. The risk was inappropriate, but the reward was in the realignment. I made a vow not to become a thrill seeker and to walk on the trail--not as a mountain goat, (but I visited where they live in the dark.)
Now, as I look at the mountains while at work, I smiled in reflection of knowing them in an intimate way. Listening to someone of particularly exteriorized focus, I could be in alignment with my deeper nature, listen, and not wear her scratchiness--no effort, just presence. Thank you Santa Rosa Mountains. Standing up again and in service.