|Flower in Santa Cruz, California|
From the ultimate homework assignment, I had a vision of my feet and hands bound, a giant rock tied to my waist and I am plunging deeper into the ocean. Not having a sense of desperation, but knowing that I have to go deeper and this was an easy visual for a two-legged. About that time a literal visiting spiritual being showed up with a giant copy of the Gita. The cover art was Krishna on a floating vessel, helping His disciples up, while others (holding a bag of money, etc.) were shown floundering in the water. I had just started rereading the Gita version by Sri Aurobindo.
Training wheels for sensing one's self at a deeper level is definitely available at the ashram. It feels like the giant nudge to get back on track with the path. For me, I have been working diligently on observing, adjusting, and letting go, but having the abrasiveness of India helps to highlight a relative state of inner peace because the environment is more peaceful in America. The gap between the sense of a deeper place by sitting in the presence of a Being who lives in that space vs. the personal truth of it relative to the heightened sense of distraction in the physical environment is palpable. I have true gratitude for India and this daily teaching. "Bring It On." Back to work--go deeper.