The spiral staircase doesn't appear to leave anything off the list, so examining why I feel like a fraud or inauthentic on the spiritual path again? Of course, I recognize that there are all shades of involvement. In the past, I have been able to create levels of proficiency so that an onlooker would never know that I felt like a fraud. Most humans wouldn't understand, they might even think it is some form of false modesty. In all honesty, it is a deep inner knowing of truthfulness. Am I playing out a role and executing it with the right look? I could look like a dancer, but it didn't mean that I felt like one. I could look like a spiritual seeker, but ... Yes, I am a human seeking questions about the spiritual path--that feels more accurate.
Working on the list for inauthenticity:
1. Greatest motivation for the spiritual path is love for the truth and not love for the sake of love.
2. No need to meet the Divine or even have a Divine.
3. Lack of love for self.
4. Lack of love for others.
(There is tolerance, acceptance, and forgiveness for #3 and #4 now.)