Pain as an Individual

Interesting to step away from the ashram for a few days and check in.  Understanding that all of reality is only what is behind what we experience most of the time, so how does one live life in both worlds?  Recognizing that we are alone as physical beings, but collectively together as souls/sparks of the Absolute.  Feeling the pain of being in the "hospital" as one disciple called our life on Earth and sensing the possibilities beyond.  The Divine Geneaology's shakti is a salve for that pain, but to not lose sight of reducing the ego and getting free from it's tentacles. The Vedas looking like the best written interpretation of the Whole.

Still a lot of pain.  It is what had led me to the trough of the Divine.  Knowing there is no solution as life in a body.  Do I just devote myself to living in meditation?  Does that become its own distraction?  The desire for struggle, discord, upset, twinges of incongruity all are becoming less desirable.  Only to feel the flow of internal peace.  Straddling the two worlds.  The outer world is a constant reminder of how much work there still is.  Keep cutting, keep observing, keep sensing, keep experiencing the pain.  No other path.  Only distractions.  A gift to see the way?  Or a shackle to faith?  Keep cutting, letting go of knowing, deepen into the unknown. Living in being. Doing in Being. Stop trying to drive the bus...

Pain as an individual.  Get out of the boat and get into the ocean.

"Oh Soul,
you worry too much,
You have seen your own strength.
You have seen your own beauty.
You have seen your golden wings.
Of anything less,
why do you worry?
You are in truth
the soul, of the soul, of the soul."

Jalal ad-Din Rumi  (Persian Poet and Mystic 1207-1273)