My inner state is joining with the outer state so my living state of self is becoming the continuous reminder of the Divine instead of just when meditating, reading, sitting at Gurudev's feet, visiting statues, tying things on my arm, putting marks on my forehead, drinking something, eating something, and so on, (not that I prescribed to all of these points, but I understand the relevancy.) As the ego is diminished/scaffolding scaled back, the "deeper" state from meditation is emerging as my true state. Fact check-check mark. Now, the madness I was experiencing as the boards were pried off the scaffolding is becoming an electric current of grace as I adjust. Fact check-check mark. Fascinating to see what triggers a spike in the new outer state as I walk--a woman sorting through a pile of garbage with 5 cows gently surrounding her and waiting for her to finish opening up sacks. Fascinating to experience what shows up in the inner state as I meditate or watch Gurudev converse with a visiting Saint.
How do I know that the ego isn't creating a story? "The truth will continue to be uncovered in the depth of the stillness, because we have an ego." Head nod on the Sue version of uncovering the path/state of being and a "keep going." Each person will experience this process and grow into it in his or her own way. Fact check-check mark. There was some mention of the outward perception continuing to change as well. I secretly keep expecting there to be a wide-eyed look of what are you thinking and experiencing when I do the fact checks, but so far so "good."
It is the first time I went to do pranam and it felt like it came from the formless to the formless. The exquisite nature of what shows up is breathtaking. Healthy intoxication. New possibilities in awareness at every turn.
Eating lunch at the ashram everyday is converting me into an Indian food addict. The variety of flavors is unbelievable. No chance of finding Indian food like this at home.