Don't get me wrong about how remarkable this new state of being is, but I wonder if it is another teaching? Is the Divine still working on cleaning my lint screen, but with a new intensity? The technique is like power washing with light and love to blast all of the crevices filled with darkness? What am I still holding onto? Am I? Could it be the uncertainty to stepping more fully into the light? It isn't fear since I know the Divine is driving the bus, but there is a state of unknowing.
I thought going home would be like curling up on the couch with a good book and a fire in the fireplace as a state of being. The intensity is still such a surprise (and a gift), so do I just get on with "stuff" instead of sitting in awe of the grace? Do I walk to the top of a mountain, fall to my knees, look up, and ask, "Now what?"