I have been leaving the horse training issue sitting on the back burner, but I guess the universe's rolodex system was bound to bring it up at some point. A pro-horse friend had me watch a video of the destruction of probably the most remarkable horse and rider combination that dressage has ever known. The horse was sold out from under the rider to a team of investors who were motivated by greed/fame--nothing related to the welfare of the animal. Less than 2 years later, the horse is on the verge of a nervous breakdown. The video symbolizes every aspect of what led me to look at suicide, a trip to Africa, and eventually India. The universe knows right where my soft spot is. I didn't black out, but it did leave me disoriented. Dressage has been the focus of 25 years of horse association and this really highlights why I was so seriously examining stepping away from it. Some people have suggested why not be a beacon for change. I have turned that stone over for four years now? If I was going to dive into the "make a change idea" it would probably be around something more urgent: rain forests, sex slavery, women's rights, etc. Experiences like these are always good for cracking open the heart capacity, so I will sit with this a bit.
http://youtu.be/sK3TzBuGN0w Taming of Totilas