And why did I think that returning home would warrant a "softening" of the lesson plan? The real work of completely letting go appears to be the task at hand. More trips to the surrender pile with my trusty wheelbarrow. I continue to laugh at myself. What was the point of everything I learned if it isn't to apply the teachings in every situation. I did sign up for that idea--internal peace in any situation.
While pairing down the blogs to the bare bones, I am noticing that they are paralleling my current process of applying the teachings instead of becoming aware of them. The Divine Lesson Plan is always available if I keep my heart open. It is clear that I am a fish out of water, so there is nothing to lose by diving into the letting go. And with huge amounts of grace, the support team is still holding the field.