|A final medical exam to determine that euthanasia is the most humane next step.|
There was a moment in the decision making of his final days that I needed to be clear within myself while playing the role of Dr. Kavorkean. It needed to feel as clear and full of love as any decision could or had ever felt. The owner was in a space reminiscent of my pre-India state and was trying to get me to step around this new point of source connection that I am operating from now. I was sobbing and an emotional wreck, but it was from the point of being asked to separate from Absolute Truth and Love. No, I couldn't go back to putting that mantel on even if it meant losing one of my dearest friends. The construction was developed in India, but now it was being put to the test in my old, familiar world. I had often felt this anguish before, but I had insufficient tools and no other path to follow. It was a point of intense surrender to what action would manifest from sitting at this point of truth as an action. Same country, same horses, but a VERY different reference point. Was this a profound moment of truly being the instrument?
24 hours later: