Inner Discernment

Inner discernment. Continuing to examine the personality state of my nature as an outsider. Looking at the inner mirror where separation continues to exist from the true Self. Conversations on ideology that would create an inner disturbance are fewer. Surprising at times the inner quiet when my mind is preparing for aggravation. Sitting daily is continuing to be critical in touching blindspots.

Horses have a personality, but it isn't as far reaching as a humans.

A milestone to open the box of 250 Selfseeds Journals.

India Visits Indio

Peacocks are always a challenge to get close to while walking in India. Fun to have them looking in the windows of my Indio casita. Enjoying being inside and looking out. Experienced a depth in the morning mediation that would meet the requirements of the new homework. Nice way to start the new year. Able to teach two hours later. Grace.

young males--no long tail feathers yet.

Check Mark Or A New Opening

Riding involves a circle of aids (seat, legs, and hands) for it to work harmoniously with the horse. I have dedicated my life to finding a humane way for this to operate between horse and rider. Today, after a year of riding/teaching at Tahquitz, I was able to convey the final piece of this information for the foundation of riding to a professional who has dedicated her life to trying to find a kind way with horses. It was a remarkable moment for both of us. She could feel and understand the freedom it allows the horse within the circle of the aids. Now, I am clear that the madness that has been consuming me is possible to create in the horse and through a student. Our life works intersected to create a transitional moment for both of us. For me, it is a big check mark which could end in completion or a new opening. The depth in the morning sitting gives me the patience to accept not knowing, but to just keep a steady rhythm while paddling in the river.

Part of my morning inner work is to invite a horse into my deeper awareness. I have no idea how it is going to manifest, but this morning, someone nudged me. Not sure who, but it took me by surprise.

I still follow international news and politics. A lot is going on is an understatement and a lot is up in the air is equally an understatement. Homework for walking in inner peace is plentiful. Living such a blessed life, but it takes self discipline and grace.

Holiday Cheer!

me to Me

Guidance

After the basics of the me requirements are met (nourishment, shelter, and safety) what is important? The journey of the Me. Me is the extension to the Oneness with consciousness. It is the part that is crying out for the scaffolding to be shifted, so liberation can unfold. Sitting every morning is helping me to recognize the priority list. Almost six years ago, the me was in agony and looking for something else. The something else is the Oneness, but the points of separation continue to need pairing back, adjusting, and letting go.

Service to the Oneness helps me to see the limits of my design, history, and mode of operation. It is all about deconstructing patterns. The work with the horses has always shown me this. Deconstructing their mind, body, and energy patterns allows them to return to the peace of grazing state while in a human environment. Learning to help horses at a trigger point level has made this more clear.

Am I any different? No. Grace of the homework assignments. Awareness of the Oneness in deep meditation has exposed me to the True Nature of Me. Shifting back into the outer construction is the reflection of how separated I am, but now I can live with the unwavering contact to the deeper awareness while moving about in the outer reality television program as an actor. A lot of time alone to sit in stillness and contemplation is fortifying my practice to stay in awareness while living as an actor. Abundance with health, wealth, and quality of life is minimizing the outer distractions, so I can focus on the depth.

Guidance

Homework Clarification

Santa Barbara, California

I have been sitting in stillness every morning. Moving from this point on to work has been a different point of integration and study then going from stillness out into local India. Opening to the depth while living in the West. The "buzz" of the spiritual realm is always present, but adding depth development on a daily basis is new. It provides a stronger fortification to live by the principles of Absolute Love and Truth. Thoughts and actions not in alignment are more quickly identified and redirected. Grace. My latest homework assignment is taking on new meaning and new passion. Walking with less and less scaffolding, but it is an adjustment. Thank you Wise Woman of the West for clarification and link to the bigger picture.

Another point of clarification has been the diversity of how we practice and what we experience during our practice. Gurudev had suggested a homework focus, but carefully explained that the manifestation of it would be unique to me. When I talk to people who have spiritual practices, it triggers some questioning of my own practice or lack of practice. I try to walk the talk and practice every minute that I am awake, but I don't have a practice with a mantra, string of beads, candle, etc. All steps or bread crumbs? Nothing needed if nothing is needed? Okay, so back to sitting and letting whatever wants to unfold or however. Discernment between the ego and the official downloads.

The view out one of my windows.

Two-legged Study

The inner stillness is pointing towards opening more fully to the study of two-leggeds. They have always been a part of my life study, but the opening to the individual stories and cross-referencing to what I have been learning is taking on a new intensity. It is continuing to shift the scratchiness by  reducing the points of separation, intensifying the inclusivity, and continuing to open my heart in a way that is guided from a new well. 

Holy Hell

Holly Hell, the name of a documentary recently released that covers over twenty years of an American spiritual center that was guided by a narcissistic, porn star posing as a guru. The people who were attending the center as disciples were often loving, service oriented, and looking for inner peace. People sometimes wonder if I am involved with a cult where I will eventually be asked to drink Koolaide of some sort. I was waiting too for the first three years, but I now know that the path isn’t about someone or some “thing."

The new homework assignment is making me more acutely aware of the vast scale of where people live from interiorly. If Gurudev hadn’t gently been encouraging me to G.O.D., I would be overwhelmed and stymied by what I am glimpsing, yet there still is no going back. Taking the steps I know from the past six years, I put one foot in front of the other, live in alignment to the shifting inner awareness, self talk “Bring it on!”, and embrace the uniqueness of it all.

Working on offering Selfseeds to school children. New territory, but remarkable to look at planting a seed, empowering youth, and support growth. Getting a lot of support from the Universe.

Selfseeds for the Equestrian is unfolding nicely as well. Looking at launching it in New Zealand and Hungary.

Nador is doing great and I am having a ball being part of his growth.

The weather in the desert is lovely. The people from Canada are starting to migrate here.