Odd Journey

Sitting and watching the ocean for a day has been a perfect way to sit with what has transpired during the past two months. It never stops moving, but it isn’t going anywhere. At some point, I will stop watching the ocean, but the awareness of self will stay with me.  Waking up is an odd journey from the human context, but not the from the soul’s.

Hotel front beach

Same beach a few kilometers away-walking...

In the water

Moth Status

Moth to the eternal flame--simple. Eternal flame as alchemy of change--simple.

Headed home! 

Upgrades

This crew is amazing to watch everyday. Fast, creative, hot conditions, and more. There is a woman carrying cement in a bowl on her head and looks like she could be in a fashion magazine!

Sanitation line going in on the street with the pink room. Able to use credit card at the grocery story.
National wifi down for three weeks, so using hotspot on a person's smartphone.  Cool upgrades. Continue to work with daily fitness program. Will be use to the heat which is good for where I am moving in California.

Daily walk and the coolest part are the elephants.

Small Moments Of Kindness

Grace from the ashram birthday

I have often wondered it there would be a day in the presence of Gurudev that I didn’t need something. Today was the day. I was just sitting, enjoying the new basic state, his presence, and the relaxed stillness without being in a spiritual coma. No questions were brewing and it felt amazing not to feel the need to disturb him and just be.

He was looking at me and asks, “Isn’t your room hot?”
I smile and nod. “I have a fan.”
He comments, “But a fan doesn’t help with the heat.”
I smile and nod.
He asks me about getting an air conditioner.
I smile and say that it isn’t necessary.
He asks about how I am managing in the heat and can I get a restful night of sleep.
I smile and say it is sometimes challenging, but at least I have a fan and there are many of others who don’t.
He pauses, smiles, and agrees. He closes his hands, bows his head, and kindly acknowledges me for my state of renunciation.

In the past, I probably would have been in tears for hours from his kindness from such a pure spiritual being, but this time I was quiet and thankful as a human receiving a moment of kindness. It was unexpected, it was not required, he is VERY busy with much more important life details, but it showed an awareness of my state of living. Usually, we only have discussions about the spiritual path and the state of inner being.

What a teaching to be aware, kind, and thoughtful to who is around us in sometimes an exteriorized offering as well. 

41st Pahari Baba Ashram Birthday

Guru "Powers"

Place of residence and the ashram.

Why am I so completely inebriated in his presence? Is it the state of realization that he lives in? Is it the nature of connecting to one’s soul genealogy?

He believes he has no powers. We may receive blessings from Source, but we are each truly the only opening to our True Nature.

Why don’t I sense this energetic vibration in any of the other Gurus and robed beings who pass through the ashram?  “99% of gurus think they are giving the power and/or they possess the power to give.” Ah yes, the point of obscuration from the ego. Gurudev’s purity is why I have spent everyday in a spiritual coma. To be in the presence of an unobscured state of living Grace. “99% of the people who come to the ashram come to feel better, not for spiritual purposes."

I think I was doing a Koolaid check and there wasn’t even a fraction of a hint of the road turning away from Source. Simplification again. The deeper one knows one’s Self, the rules don’t change. No hands needed on the stirring wheel. Let Go! still applies.

The mind tries to dance with all of this information, but the heart goes to spiritual coma status. Yet another layer of separation incinerated. Pranam!!!

Dancing Mind

Homework: work with the dancing mind in between the bliss.

Fifty years of life touched in two months--spiral staircase on fire. Organization of the second book downloaded. Spiritual path clear for the moment. Ready to start material work! Pink room will remain.