Sharing "The Story"

What Next?

Inviting and interesting to share "the story" from the past year with friends, family, and new contacts.  No one appears to be disbelieving, but it connects to some thread, question, or story within the individual's life.  Experiencing how western life embraces core concepts and beliefs from the East.  The underlying essence of humanity is evident.  Speaking and relating from a new understanding and relaxation around the two-legged realm (humans) is beautiful.  The question of, "Can I sit with humans in the same capacity as animals and nature," has been answered, "Yes."  Sitting with that new awareness and without any desire or attachment to the outcome is being in the grace of the inner stillness.  Just showing up as we often hear and read on the spiritual path.  Experiencing the unfolding without a need to direct or control it in any way.  I do keep casting my line into the employment pool and how to be in service, but I am savoring this new state of being without fear, desire, or attachment--ultimate freedom.

First Sitting With The Western World's Tribe

Spring's Beauty

As I went to sit down at the DMV and wait for my number to come up on the screen, I was remembering my visit to the Foreign Affairs Office and other official offices in India.  It was fun to sit with a group from the local culture and observe the diversity:  there were all shapes, sizes, ages, nationalities, and belief systems moving about.  All of us sat in chairs that were in tidy rows and I found myself drifting into "ashram mode."  The inner stillness was present, the joy was present, and even the tears of gratitude for the Divine were welling up.  I had to stay alert so I didn't miss my number, but I could have easily closed my eyes and drifted into the beautiful essence.  How different for me to feel such peace and ease with a group of unknown humans.

When I would leave my cement room in the morning, I often felt like a set of eyes in an energy field starting the walk to the gym or the store.  The assaults from the environment would prod me back into my physical form.  Because California's environment is not taxing me in the same way,  I feel like I keep oozing out of my human form into an expanded puddle-like human form.  When I have to perform exacting details, I can feel a bit disconnected and cumbersome in the execution.

Before, nature and animals were the highest bar of spiritual energy for me.  I had mentioned to Gurudev that he and Pahari Baba currently felt the same to me, but now nature didn't feel as exquisite.  He reminded me that my materialistic nature had still been in place when I was experiencing breath-taking beauty, but now everything would have the opportunity to feel a kin to the Divine Nature.  As I was photographing the flowering trees and enjoying the feel of the sun on my back, light breeze blowing, and the stillness of the aging tree, the depth of my heart began to tingle and expand outwardly in the lovely way I experience in Gurudev's presence.  His words of wisdom came washing through me as delicately as the breeze.

  

Let Your Light Shine

Fun to receive this photo while in the US.  How lovingly this animal group accepted me.

Looking through various papers and ran across this quote.  A friend passed this on to me November 24, 2002.  I have saved this scrap of paper for almost 10 years.  A timeless quote that takes on different depths each time I "randomly" bump into it.

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our Light not our Darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you NOT to be?
You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the World.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It is not just in some of us:  it is in everyone.
And as we let our own Light shine, we unconsciously
Give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others.

Ever Present

The photos of Santa Rosa were shared with Gurudev.  The field of support and love from the Divine Beings feels ever present.  

Abundance

Carrots

Broccoli 

Celery

Cabbage

Cabbage

Red Peppers

Now For The Culture Shock

Spring is coming

It struck me when I was in Safeway at 10:30 pm (after working out and showering at the beautiful gym)--the culture shock.  Wandering around buying fruit, tea, shampoo, and a few random items.  Oh My Gosh--the abundance.  Do we realize how fortunate we are?  Where does all of this "perfect" fresh food come from?  There were no bruised items in sight.  And so much of everything.  Crazy and almost embarrassing in some ways.  Then I proceeded to the gas station.  It was open, clean, well lighted, and had a friendly, helpful clerk--even at that time of the night.  Does America sleep? This part is truly surreal from a physical standpoint.  The freedom to move about unobserved, undisturbed, and I still haven't heard one horn honk.

On a silly note, the gym here is less expensive than the one in India, but not anything else...  Putting in work applications for many different jobs (whatever the universe wants):  wedding party DJ,  Pete's Coffee House, office assistant, nutrition sales person, and tomorrow I check out a horse facility and talk to my horse sales business partner.  Planning to approach a few of the gyms and other places about presenting Selfseeds. Not one idea of what will show up for $.  One house sitting job is lined up for next month.

Yin and Yang of Winter/Spring

The New State of Living

Bhavani garden

This sums it up:  YOU ARE NOT A HUMAN BEING HAVING A SPIRITUAL EXPERIENCE,YOU  ARE A SPIRITUAL BEING HAVING A HUMAN EXPERIENCE