Monday, October 31, 2016

Two-legged Study


The inner stillness is pointing towards opening more fully to the study of two-leggeds. They have always been a part of my life study, but the opening to the individual stories and cross-referencing to what I have been learning is taking on a new intensity. It is continuing to shift the scratchiness by  reducing the points of separation, intensifying the inclusivity, and continuing to open my heart in a way that is guided from a new well. 

Tuesday, October 18, 2016

Holy Hell

Holly Hell, the name of a documentary recently released that covers over twenty years of an American spiritual center that was guided by a narcissistic, porn star posing as a guru. The people who were attending the center as disciples were often loving, service oriented, and looking for inner peace. People sometimes wonder if I am involved with a cult where I will eventually be asked to drink Koolaide of some sort. I was waiting too for the first three years, but I now know that the path isn’t about someone or some “thing."

The new homework assignment is making me more acutely aware of the vast scale of where people live from interiorly. If Gurudev hadn’t gently been encouraging me to G.O.D., I would be overwhelmed and stymied by what I am glimpsing, yet there still is no going back. Taking the steps I know from the past six years, I put one foot in front of the other, live in alignment to the shifting inner awareness, self talk “Bring it on!”, and embrace the uniqueness of it all.



Working on offering Selfseeds to school children. New territory, but remarkable to look at planting a seed, empowering youth, and support growth. Getting a lot of support from the Universe.

Selfseeds for the Equestrian is unfolding nicely as well. Looking at launching it in New Zealand and Hungary.

Nador is doing great and I am having a ball being part of his growth.

The weather in the desert is lovely. The people from Canada are starting to migrate here.


Tuesday, October 4, 2016

Next Stop

Colorado
Utah

The work in India has already been put to the test in the West. Awesome to feel the place of inner peace as a reflex instead of an effort in a shift. Plenty to do and looking forward to diving into this next homework assignment.

The drive from Colorado to Southern California was beautiful. Nador is transported in two days. The work with Selfseeds was transformative for the facilitators as well as the participants. A new door is opening.




Friday, September 23, 2016

Looking and Sensing Through The Lens











Fabric of Humanity

One of the camels
The lessons from living in such a diversity of countries has been remarkable. Like a family or friends that you don't see for a while, there is a sense of community as an individual who even just drops in yearly. This is the sixth year that I have walked the streets of Jaipur and I have a community: the bottle collectors, the Babas, the elephant people, the camel people, the school children, the shop keepers, the exercisers, the hill people, the going to work people, the road workers, the tent community, and people who just see me on a regular basis and wave.  Without the living and walking at such an intimate level (I have done this wherever I have lived...), I couldn't have gotten to know the oneness of it all. We are all just two-leggeds living out some variation of survival on the Earth.

In India, starting as a white, woman walking with a shirt that said money or sex, to a white, woman walking who is here with a spiritual intention has been a remarkable teaching. I never had an intention to fit in, I just wanted to survive, focus on my inner work in the ashram, not get sick, or be molested. To see this community grow without intention, just presence of being my self, setting boundaries, consistency, and staying the course is fascinating. It has even started to happen in Carbondale, Colorado with the pattern I have of working at two ranches, gym, coffee shop for wifi, and the grocery store. A community is started through eye contact, patience, routine, and small interactions. I think of myself as being invisible, but I am not. People are watching, assessing cues, and taking action accordingly. I am part of the community whether "invisible" or not.

Every day, four times a day, I talk to a particular camel who is tied alone. He has a very damaged nose, so I talk to him and wish him well every time I pass by. He knows my voice now and lowers his head towards me, (I don't know camel language, so I am hesitant to try and touch him), so simple. Now I better understand that it is that simple with two-leggeds as well. A head nod to the man who pushes his bike up the hill with full jugs of water while I am finishing my run down the hill. A wave to the man who drives down the hill with a loaded motorcycle of cut grass as I walk up the hill. An exchanged smile with the woman who is going about her morning chores as I walk by on the street.

Something about this new homework assignment to move more deeply inside has softened the exterior world. I have been given permission to make it my secondary focus, but still interacting from the vibration of what is growing inside. Another veil has shifted. Feeling very blessed to feel this sense of oneness from now the outside as well as the inside. Beautiful conversation about it with Gurudev and he also helped me to see the oneness of all exercise as yoga whether sitting on a mat with an awareness of breath or running up the hill with an awareness of breath. Breathing and living. More circles.

Sorting through the stream of refuse in a local waterway

Morning rituals as part of the morning fabric

Thursday, September 22, 2016

Living Grace

Living Grace
Contemplating
Phone intervention
Deep contemplation
Anything is possible when the newspaper is up.
2016
More Grace
I couldn't help but post all of these knowing there are people around the globe who don't have the chance to visit Jaipur, but would love to have a current photo of Gurudev. Grace. Pranam. 

Tuesday, September 20, 2016

Language of Silence

Cooling off
What a beautiful concept--I am going to become a more focused student of the language of silence. While sitting in the ashram with the presence of Gurudev and everyone focused inwardly, the inner texture is exquisite and inebriating even with the distraction of traffic sounds, power saws, humans coming and going, and more.


Heading home--me too!