The inner stillness is pointing towards opening more fully to the study of two-leggeds. They have always been a part of my life study, but the opening to the individual stories and cross-referencing to what I have been learning is taking on a new intensity. It is continuing to shift the scratchiness by reducing the points of separation, intensifying the inclusivity, and continuing to open my heart in a way that is guided from a new well.
An electronic diary sharing my spiritual path through observations/experiences, photos, videos, articles and more. It started with intensity at the end of January 2011 when I decided to go to South Africa and see the truth of animals living in the wild. Unsatisfied with the answers, I went to India looking for the truth of humans in an ancient civilization. Packing up my life as a dressage trainer in Southern California, I moved to Jaipur, India to follow a spiritual inquiry.
Monday, October 31, 2016
Two-legged Study
The inner stillness is pointing towards opening more fully to the study of two-leggeds. They have always been a part of my life study, but the opening to the individual stories and cross-referencing to what I have been learning is taking on a new intensity. It is continuing to shift the scratchiness by reducing the points of separation, intensifying the inclusivity, and continuing to open my heart in a way that is guided from a new well.
Tuesday, October 18, 2016
Holy Hell
Holly Hell, the name of a documentary recently released that covers over twenty years of an American spiritual center that was guided by a narcissistic, porn star posing as a guru. The people who were attending the center as disciples were often loving, service oriented, and looking for inner peace. People sometimes wonder if I am involved with a cult where I will eventually be asked to drink Koolaide of some sort. I was waiting too for the first three years, but I now know that the path isn’t about someone or some “thing."
The new homework assignment is making me more acutely aware of the vast scale of where people live from interiorly. If Gurudev hadn’t gently been encouraging me to G.O.D., I would be overwhelmed and stymied by what I am glimpsing, yet there still is no going back. Taking the steps I know from the past six years, I put one foot in front of the other, live in alignment to the shifting inner awareness, self talk “Bring it on!”, and embrace the uniqueness of it all.
Working on offering Selfseeds to school children. New territory, but remarkable to look at planting a seed, empowering youth, and support growth. Getting a lot of support from the Universe.
Selfseeds for the Equestrian is unfolding nicely as well. Looking at launching it in New Zealand and Hungary.
Nador is doing great and I am having a ball being part of his growth.
The weather in the desert is lovely. The people from Canada are starting to migrate here.
The new homework assignment is making me more acutely aware of the vast scale of where people live from interiorly. If Gurudev hadn’t gently been encouraging me to G.O.D., I would be overwhelmed and stymied by what I am glimpsing, yet there still is no going back. Taking the steps I know from the past six years, I put one foot in front of the other, live in alignment to the shifting inner awareness, self talk “Bring it on!”, and embrace the uniqueness of it all.
Working on offering Selfseeds to school children. New territory, but remarkable to look at planting a seed, empowering youth, and support growth. Getting a lot of support from the Universe.
Selfseeds for the Equestrian is unfolding nicely as well. Looking at launching it in New Zealand and Hungary.
Nador is doing great and I am having a ball being part of his growth.
The weather in the desert is lovely. The people from Canada are starting to migrate here.
Tuesday, October 4, 2016
Next Stop
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| Colorado |
| Utah |
The work in India has already been put to the test in the West. Awesome to feel the place of inner peace as a reflex instead of an effort in a shift. Plenty to do and looking forward to diving into this next homework assignment.
The drive from Colorado to Southern California was beautiful. Nador is transported in two days. The work with Selfseeds was transformative for the facilitators as well as the participants. A new door is opening.
Friday, September 23, 2016
Fabric of Humanity
| One of the camels |
In India, starting as a white, woman walking with a shirt that said money or sex, to a white, woman walking who is here with a spiritual intention has been a remarkable teaching. I never had an intention to fit in, I just wanted to survive, focus on my inner work in the ashram, not get sick, or be molested. To see this community grow without intention, just presence of being my self, setting boundaries, consistency, and staying the course is fascinating. It has even started to happen in Carbondale, Colorado with the pattern I have of working at two ranches, gym, coffee shop for wifi, and the grocery store. A community is started through eye contact, patience, routine, and small interactions. I think of myself as being invisible, but I am not. People are watching, assessing cues, and taking action accordingly. I am part of the community whether "invisible" or not.
Every day, four times a day, I talk to a particular camel who is tied alone. He has a very damaged nose, so I talk to him and wish him well every time I pass by. He knows my voice now and lowers his head towards me, (I don't know camel language, so I am hesitant to try and touch him), so simple. Now I better understand that it is that simple with two-leggeds as well. A head nod to the man who pushes his bike up the hill with full jugs of water while I am finishing my run down the hill. A wave to the man who drives down the hill with a loaded motorcycle of cut grass as I walk up the hill. An exchanged smile with the woman who is going about her morning chores as I walk by on the street.
Something about this new homework assignment to move more deeply inside has softened the exterior world. I have been given permission to make it my secondary focus, but still interacting from the vibration of what is growing inside. Another veil has shifted. Feeling very blessed to feel this sense of oneness from now the outside as well as the inside. Beautiful conversation about it with Gurudev and he also helped me to see the oneness of all exercise as yoga whether sitting on a mat with an awareness of breath or running up the hill with an awareness of breath. Breathing and living. More circles.
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| Sorting through the stream of refuse in a local waterway |
| Morning rituals as part of the morning fabric |
Thursday, September 22, 2016
Living Grace
| Living Grace |
| Contemplating |
| Phone intervention |
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| Deep contemplation |
| Anything is possible when the newspaper is up. |
| 2016 |
| More Grace |
Tuesday, September 20, 2016
Language of Silence
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| Cooling off |
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| Heading home--me too! |
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