Wednesday, October 8, 2025

Awakened Horsemanship--Selfseeds

 



A quiet reflection-map between training a horse and creating Selfseeds.
Each pairing shows how the same rhythm of awareness moves through both fields.


🐴 Awakened Horsemanship ↔ Selfseeds Creation

1. Approach / First Contact

With a horse: you enter the pen softly, wait for breath to match, let curiosity lead the first step.
In creation: you enter a new idea without pushing — you listen, sense, and let the first spark reveal itself.
✨ The lesson: Invitation before instruction.


2. Pressure and Release

With a horse: a light aid asks for movement; when the horse responds, the pressure melts away.
In creation: effort initiates a design or phrase; when the form appears, you stop forcing and let it breathe.
✨ The lesson: Growth happens in the exhale.


3. Feel and Timing

With a horse: you adjust by milliseconds — energy, breath, body.
In creation: you adjust by intuition — when to pause, when to refine, when to move on.
✨ The lesson: Presence is precision.


4. Building Trust

With a horse: consistency and clarity build confidence; the horse begins to seek the contact.
In creation: showing up daily with honesty lets the work meet you halfway.
✨ The lesson: Reliability is safety for all living systems.


5. Partnership in Motion

With a horse: aids disappear; movement becomes conversation.
In creation: technique fades; the work begins to create itself through you.
✨ The lesson: When coherence is embodied, guidance becomes invisible.


6. Rest and Integration

With a horse: you end on a good note, let the lesson settle, walk out quietly.
In creation: you close the computer, tend the farm, breathe — the learning integrates unseen.
✨ The lesson: Stillness completes the circle.


🌾 One Field, Two Forms

Horsemanship teaches you how to meet the living moment.
Creation teaches you how to build what that meeting reveals.
Both are Selfseeds — awareness growing through relationship.

Wednesday, September 17, 2025

Coherence and Reverence Holding Hands

 


"Today I remembered I am only alone by human standards."

Cracking the code of inner aloneness. I have been walking and living with it for the four plus years on the farm. A silent retreat with periodic visitors and phone calls. Pure Grace. 

I was reflecting on a poem I gave Gurudev over 10 years ago about a frog in a well. He looked at me startled by it. I recently reread it on one of the blog posts. 

I have been feeling like a frog living in a well even if it is the sacred well of the Green Womb. Today, I see that was only the story my mind had created.


Monday, September 15, 2025

Legacy Property

 


Walking through the sale of the Green Womb and sensing the incredible disconnect. How does a land treated as a sacred site go back to poison on the lands and chopping down the woods? A new thread has emerged. Natural Land Trusts, Nature Conservatory, Blue Grass Conservatory... Legacy Property. 

It is real and how fortunate that call #1 and #2 were met by people who recognize the reverent quality of land as a living Being--not a commodity to trade. It is out there in the world. It is real. People who purchase land like art work to protect, steward, and support the deepest essence of the energetic land. 

She is leading me now like the horses have always done. Grace.


Beautiful shot Mary Woloson. Thank you.

Thursday, September 11, 2025

Selfseeds Is Soil (Embodied Coherence)

 



🌿 Selfseeds: A Quiet Offering

This is not the answer.
But it is an answer.

Not a method.
Not a map.
A remembering.

A way to turn toward yourself
without needing to explain.
A way to walk
without striving to arrive.

Selfseeds is soil.
It doesn’t tell you what to grow.
It simply restores the conditions
in which you can begin to grow again.

It’s the rhythm beneath the noise.
The breath beneath the doing.
The quiet “yes” that lives
somewhere deeper than words.

You don’t need to believe anything.
You don’t need to be anything.

You just get to be here.

Joy.
Simple.
Alive.

Wednesday, September 10, 2025

The Sacred Wheelbarrow


April 10, 2021--First purchase of tools: wheelbarrow, rake, and a manure fork. 

September 10, 2025--same wheelbarrow (new wheels) and the manure fork are my daily meditation. 

Hard to believe I had a metaphor of a wheelbarrow in India to take unneeded ideas to the surrender pile. Identify, examine, learn, integrate, and compost. Everyday with topics from my own list and the global population at large. Daily rhythm. 

Years later, the true wheelbarrow, walking daily, raking manure on the land to see how to heal and care for neglected land. Land and life transforming. I discovered the sacred in compost. It transformed the farm and I learned that soil tending/growing is coherence. 

Coherence was an unidentified quality that is the essence of Selfseeds, Awakened Horsemanship, and Living Labyrinth, Inc. Coherence is the soil we are missing with many programs. Programs want to plant seeds. 

I learned 10 years ago while working with troubled youth that they need soil before we can plant seeds. I carried that realization for 10 years and only now, it unfolded as the key takeaway of the Selfseeds Spark Experience. 

The metaphorical and living wheelbarrow birthed a love of composting. Mystery and Magic of Life!





Tuesday, September 9, 2025

How Many Years Later

 

Rediscovering Poetry Written in India