Serious Crack and Insight

View from the grounds of Two Bunch Palms Spa/Wellness Center

After a year of returning to riding and teaching, the stagnation/pain of the horse industry is evident and a reminder of what sent me to India six years ago. Walking and visiting all of the different places of worship in the Jaipur hills is coming in handy--the sensing practice of the different  vibrations/textures of the sites.

While spending a day at Two Bunch Palms preparing for the Selfseeds launch gave me tremendous insight into humans in an active evolutionary effort on a mind, body, and soul level. I realized that the texture/teachings at the spa is what riders need to embody to deepen their timing and feel for riding. Riding and teaching on my off day reminded me of the texture I prefer to work in with the horses and riders. Sensing the texture of a work day and the environment at the very big horse show has been triggering an all too familiar pain response that is most ignited by the animal world. It provided a serious crack and insight. I can find the inner state, but it doesn't solve the outer state.

The message that followed: develop an equestrian facility that is next door to an educational spa, so it would be a wellness/awareness facility for humans/animals. It would address the evolutionary needs for both groups. I checked with the person who is a consultant for launching Selfseeds at Two Bunch Palms et al. She thought it would be a "home run" for both. Sign me up!!!

Fun water feature at the spa with turtles, ducks, and fish.

Contemplating it all... Grace!

Ducks sleeping in the early morning.

Texture of light and matter.

Surrender Pile Still In Active Use

Relentless study of the self and the outer world. Trying to understand the uniqueness of us all. That study took me down a messy, blind alley. Judgement, ignorance, limited understanding, inappropriate stories, and more were the shortcomings. Back to my "self" study and a trip to the surrender pile with other humans in it. Just knowing we are all One and energetically connected are what guidelines I need to live by.

Life in the winter desert is remarkable with seventy degree days.

Learning the alphabet of sound through my voice and the guitar. It sets me on fire like the spiritual journey. The teacher stated that few want to venture down this path of purity. Numbers similar to Gurudev's about the study of the deeper part of the spiritual path.

Selfseeds is growing.

Inner Discernment

Inner discernment. Continuing to examine the personality state of my nature as an outsider. Looking at the inner mirror where separation continues to exist from the true Self. Conversations on ideology that would create an inner disturbance are fewer. Surprising at times the inner quiet when my mind is preparing for aggravation. Sitting daily is continuing to be critical in touching blindspots.

Horses have a personality, but it isn't as far reaching as a humans.

A milestone to open the box of 250 Selfseeds Journals.

India Visits Indio

Peacocks are always a challenge to get close to while walking in India. Fun to have them looking in the windows of my Indio casita. Enjoying being inside and looking out. Experienced a depth in the morning mediation that would meet the requirements of the new homework. Nice way to start the new year. Able to teach two hours later. Grace.

young males--no long tail feathers yet.

Check Mark Or A New Opening

Riding involves a circle of aids (seat, legs, and hands) for it to work harmoniously with the horse. I have dedicated my life to finding a humane way for this to operate between horse and rider. Today, after a year of riding/teaching at Tahquitz, I was able to convey the final piece of this information for the foundation of riding to a professional who has dedicated her life to trying to find a kind way with horses. It was a remarkable moment for both of us. She could feel and understand the freedom it allows the horse within the circle of the aids. Now, I am clear that the madness that has been consuming me is possible to create in the horse and through a student. Our life works intersected to create a transitional moment for both of us. For me, it is a big check mark which could end in completion or a new opening. The depth in the morning sitting gives me the patience to accept not knowing, but to just keep a steady rhythm while paddling in the river.

Part of my morning inner work is to invite a horse into my deeper awareness. I have no idea how it is going to manifest, but this morning, someone nudged me. Not sure who, but it took me by surprise.

I still follow international news and politics. A lot is going on is an understatement and a lot is up in the air is equally an understatement. Homework for walking in inner peace is plentiful. Living such a blessed life, but it takes self discipline and grace.

Holiday Cheer!

me to Me

Guidance

After the basics of the me requirements are met (nourishment, shelter, and safety) what is important? The journey of the Me. Me is the extension to the Oneness with consciousness. It is the part that is crying out for the scaffolding to be shifted, so liberation can unfold. Sitting every morning is helping me to recognize the priority list. Almost six years ago, the me was in agony and looking for something else. The something else is the Oneness, but the points of separation continue to need pairing back, adjusting, and letting go.

Service to the Oneness helps me to see the limits of my design, history, and mode of operation. It is all about deconstructing patterns. The work with the horses has always shown me this. Deconstructing their mind, body, and energy patterns allows them to return to the peace of grazing state while in a human environment. Learning to help horses at a trigger point level has made this more clear.

Am I any different? No. Grace of the homework assignments. Awareness of the Oneness in deep meditation has exposed me to the True Nature of Me. Shifting back into the outer construction is the reflection of how separated I am, but now I can live with the unwavering contact to the deeper awareness while moving about in the outer reality television program as an actor. A lot of time alone to sit in stillness and contemplation is fortifying my practice to stay in awareness while living as an actor. Abundance with health, wealth, and quality of life is minimizing the outer distractions, so I can focus on the depth.

Guidance

Homework Clarification

Santa Barbara, California

I have been sitting in stillness every morning. Moving from this point on to work has been a different point of integration and study then going from stillness out into local India. Opening to the depth while living in the West. The "buzz" of the spiritual realm is always present, but adding depth development on a daily basis is new. It provides a stronger fortification to live by the principles of Absolute Love and Truth. Thoughts and actions not in alignment are more quickly identified and redirected. Grace. My latest homework assignment is taking on new meaning and new passion. Walking with less and less scaffolding, but it is an adjustment. Thank you Wise Woman of the West for clarification and link to the bigger picture.

Another point of clarification has been the diversity of how we practice and what we experience during our practice. Gurudev had suggested a homework focus, but carefully explained that the manifestation of it would be unique to me. When I talk to people who have spiritual practices, it triggers some questioning of my own practice or lack of practice. I try to walk the talk and practice every minute that I am awake, but I don't have a practice with a mantra, string of beads, candle, etc. All steps or bread crumbs? Nothing needed if nothing is needed? Okay, so back to sitting and letting whatever wants to unfold or however. Discernment between the ego and the official downloads.

The view out one of my windows.