Science Discovers The Divine?

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Rereading A Favorite Book

"Great Swan Meetings with Ramakrishna"  is one of my favorite spiritual books. 

Reflections From The Past

Revisiting threads from the past appears to be a way to examine attachments, lint, work, progress, or however I perceive the view.  What happens when a person, place, or event from the past is experienced from the current perspective?  Lots of that process was placed on the examination table while on the trip to Southern California.  One of the horses who was part of my darkest point in the horse training process was Dillon.  A friend and I rescued him from a situation where he was confined, had severe foot problems, and behavior issues.  He was a very stubborn, willful horse, but did I take the training too far with what I asked and in a brutal way?  He also lead me be back to a layer of looking at international competition as a possibility and the "reality" of that world.  The pain from my experience with him is what eventually lead me to India and he found a home as a vaulting horse where he is loved and treasured.  We both found a way to a "better" place, so was the path appropriate?  There are no answers appears on the radar, but an opportunity to learn and grow towards compassion/love.

Thank you Dillon!!

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yK8-N0t0-cI

Clean Bill Of Health--Ready To Go

Dental and wellness check--all good.  Ready to hit the road again. All the puzzle pieces are falling into place, visiting a lot of people (family, friends, north, south, past, present...)  My heart rate was at a new record low, so I will credit the Insanity Program for that.  The horse past feels healed and I have a plan for the future if that is the direction.  Fun to teach a little bit.  The new Selfseeds fitness program I have been developing has been approved by a sport's therapist, BUT with a huge warning for the potential injuries if someone isn't fit and core aware. (She called it the Sue Insanity Plan.)  Launching the PhoenixEQ website for international horse sales.  Dipping into a few other new areas as well.

All of it feels like dabbling until I return to The Master's feet.

Beyond The Lint Screen

The Dance of Light from the ocean edge in Southern California

So why am I going back to India?  The last trip resolved my fear of humans, provided a sense of Absolute Truth/Love, and gave me a tool kit of accepting/loving the human insanity plan.  Of course it will be AMAZING to sit at the feet of Gurudev, but is there more?  I have been absolutely blank accept knowing that I need to go back.  As my homework in the West is integrating and the final details of my departure are drawing to completion, I have started to examine the why?  "Bring it on" was offered. What is it that I cannot see?  Something so deep and so close that I cannot examine it?

I made a visit to NB to see if he could give me a clue.  We sorted out the homework assignment.  Love at the deepest level and fullest capacity.  Of course, the obvious.  

Nine hours of driving allowed me to examine just what did that mean.  There was a very distinct thread that unraveled and then I realized that this place exists behind the lint screen, beyond naked, and into a vast unknown.  While in intense pain, I had surrendered it all and was willing to live with any outcome--death, disease, disfigurement or whatever was required.  On the other side of the energetic death was light, peace, and love--a "resting" zone of some sort.  

What happens when one surrenders to the resting zone?  There is no end to the gratitude for what I have already learned and experienced.  I don't have anything on my wish list other than to live out the rest of this life cycle in some aspect of service.  So what is with this new homework assignment?  

The Universe is unrelenting.  Now I see that the escalator is still moving and my shoelace is still caught in it.  Assignment:  open to Absolute Love at some new capacity.  While sitting at the ashram, I experienced human love, unconditional love, and Absolute Love.  Now I see how that wasn't enough, but it was a start.  It opened a new doorway by sensing love in a capacity that wasn't limited by the rules of human society or built on some condition.  Nature and animals had shown me this, but two-leggeds had never.  Experiencing Absolute Love as a droplet of the Divine State helped me to examine the potential, but now to go back once again and experience it as a limited human opening to limitlessness.  

I was all signed up for the formless, but the "no stone is left unturned and no blade of grass is left unexamined" has been the truth and teachings of the path.  Sigh!  Once again, Sue is the obstacle course.  The limit is only mine.  The minute I realized this, an intense energetic marker showed up in my heart.  Breathing deep and into the sensation was the point of contact.  I had to laugh out loud at the next assignment--beyond the lint screen.  Bingo.  The blank screen is still in place, but a small line of invisible ink is starting to appear at the top of the board.  (And all of this while driving 80 mph over the Grapevine!)

The light partnering with the obscuration

Mesmerizing...

The Light Is So Remarkable

Canoeing

Keep dipping the oars into the water ...  Life feels like canoeing down a smooth, steady stream.  Everything is moving (the river), but everything is calm (stillness in the canoe.)  Just keep meeting each moment with being, no attachment to the path, no requirement to act in a particular manner, a willingness to wait, and a willingness to act.